The Beginning
Seriously, I would like to forget some things that happened this year. I consider 2009 as the worst and most psychically tiresome year in my life! It was like that from the very beginning. Actually, there was one paradox: On the one hand I fell in love with a wonderful man and we’re still together, but on the other hand I lost my self-confidence since I wasn’t accepted to any Art University. Because of this bad experience I stopped doing anything. Some friends and even teachers told me that it is common not to be accepted and that lots of students tried it even 3 or 7 times to get there! I knew that but I still haven’t listened to them. I “ proclaimed” myself as NON-artist. I couldn’t call myself like that and I didn’t have any motivation to create a piece of art. I decided to leave everything for a while and I spent time only studying, preparing for my graduation or I enjoyed the time with my boyfriend. But inside I felt like NOBODY… like a random person wandering in the world without any goal. It was this pain inside that I lost any feeling - any pleasure that I had before when creating art. After finishing high school I passed another exam and got to an Art School where I am now. It was the last chance to get somewhere. It’s not a university, it’s a (I don’t know how to translate it in English) a “School of higher education” - something between high school and college. What is more, it’s a private school and it’s fucking expensive!!

Summer Holidays
I spent the summer with my boyfriend on Malta trying to earn some money. I worked as a waitress/bartender. I didn’t like the work but those Maltese people were funny. And I didn’t like it mostly because of stupid Italian guests who refused to speak English! At least I can make great Mojitos!! XD

Second Breakdown
In September I came back from Malta and my mum told me that she has to go to Germany because she was needed in a company. Well… I was 2 months without my mum and I don’t know what happened but I got in problems with the rest of my family. This was another part of the year which restrained me of doing anything. Even during school I had another breakdown and I was thinking about leaving everything…
Suddenly, from one day to another, things calmed down. My mum came back and everything is alright now.

And Today...
I feel much better now and I gained this feeling again... I create again… I enjoy drawing and I almost forgot about it. I do it for my own pleasure. It’s like I picked up those broken pieces of me and now I continue.
I feel self-confident and I have a strong will just like it was before. It’s me again.
I feel like I have to do something now because I “came back”. I have to share "it" with you
I feel like nothing can stop me now and I’m heading to ”something” which makes me excited.

However, I study Interactive Multimedia, Animation and Audio-visual stuff. The school is in Czech Republic like 250 km away from home so I live in a flat with some roommates. I like the people there and the teachers. I still don’t know whether I finish the school and then try to get to Uni, or if I try it next year. I’ll see.. But I know that it won’t let me down like the first time. All in all, I have someone who is always by my side and I love him very much

My Empty Gallery
Sorry that I just removed my gallery without any explanation. Last month after things calmed down I came back to DeviantArt and browsing my gallery I realized that I don’t like it. I need a new start so I removed my old works and I’m about to RESET the gallery. I have lots of new pictures and I’ll submit them soon.

Well…
I’m looking forward to year 2010 and I believe that it will be much better than this one!
I wish you all Marry Christmas and enjoy the holidays as much as you can.Make some great New Years Resolutions and try to follow them.

I hope my long journal didn’t make you fall asleep XD
That’s all for now,
Take care and See you
Yuhon